venting

When I am the sickest, or the most emotionally disturbed, is when it takes the most work to get better. It is also when I have the least energy and motivation. Some things only get worse with time and its a snowball effect. I want to feel better, oh how I so desperately want to feel better, but I don't feel good enough to get going in the wrong direction. It will eventually get to the point that my fight or flight kicks in. I don't like functioning on crisis mode either. I definitely need to find it in me to implement some changes.

Go to Jail Little Boy

Some things just do not go together. I do not know exactly where my parenting beliefs came from, but I think it is safe to assume that common sense plays a part. Today I was going to pick up my daughter 10 minutes early from school because she had a Dr's appointment. As I was walking by all the parents waiting for dismissal, I happened by a little boy who was wandering a little far from his mother. I assume he was about 2 years old. The Mom yelled at him to come back. He kept about his business of spinning around a pole.

The mother, who was arguing with someone on her phone, and appeared irritated with her son, walked closer to him and told him that the Police were coming for him. He looked towards her, but didn't move. She then said that if he didn't get over  by her, the Police were coming and he would go to jail. He still didn't move, so she walked up to him, grabbed him by the arm, and pulled him back to the giant flower pot she had been standing near. I couldn't help but thinking how sad it is that a parent would put fear into such a young child, and would use law enforcement as the means to control her 2 year old son.

I continued on in the school, and signed out my daughter. We walked down the halls and back out to the front of the school. I noticed that the little boy was back playing at the pole, as his mom paced by the pot, still engaged in an argument on the phone. Guess the police never came, and the 2 year old lucked out that he isn't going to jail today